Misery

Hello~ finally found some free time to blog a bit. Well, I just woke up like half an hour ago. It's now 12:10pm on a Thursday afternoon. Waiting for time to pass and I'll head off to work soon. Oh yes, I'm working at St.Regis hotel located at orchard. Heh. It's not that bad, but it's extremely tiring. My shift today will be from 5pm to 3am. Hmmm, actually waiting for someone to wake up too. Sigh, so bored and lonely. Always. I'm home alone now... Hmmmmm, have you ever had this hopeless sad feeling? Whereby you work so hard and put in so much effort just to bring someone out but in the end, you realize it's not possible because there's other things in between that's obstructing you from going out tgt with that person. What do you do? I have no idea too. Plans never seem to work out, Fights and quarrels almost everyday. Hard to see one another. This really sucks man. For example, you're so excited and looking forward to go to....let's say USS with that person. Very much looking forward and keen. But...it's not possible because of the things that block the way. Hais, this is really beyond what I can do. I have already done my best. Took so much initiative in everything that it makes me look and feel desperate. I've already done the best I could. The rest is all beyond my power and reach. Feeling like this everyday, it's just horrible I tell you. The thought just keeps lingering in your mind. Plus nothing really good has been happening lately. It's either normal...or bad. I really hope things get better soon. Cause I can't take it much longer.

Welcome back~

Ahhh yes, the sweet nostalgic feeling of blogging again. My last post was in...January this year? And look at where we are now, coming to the end of the year! How time really flies. I read through my previous posts and I was still talking about my first few days in school when here I am, finally graduated...again. Have finally completed my N levels and it sure was a tough journey. Hmmm, throughout my many months this year, I've been through a lot. Really a lot. I've made many new friends and buddies, met many interesting people and so on. Been through extreme ups and downs, thick and thin. It was a wild ride. Well, as the phrase goes ; what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger. Gosh, I have so much to talk about but I just don't know how to put them in words. Hmmm...well, since the exams are finally over, I'm a free man. But at the same time, every single day, I'll have to look for things to do and find something to occupy myself. And that sucks. I've applied for a job...to occupy my time and to earn some holiday cash. Im working as a waiter at a banquet in Resorts World Sentosa! Yep, that sounds good alright. So...how have I been? I've been good I guess. Life has been pretty much on the downside lately. Have no idea why. Everything just doesn't seem right sometimes. Everything just isn't in place. And my left eye has been twitching recently...it has stopped for good, but I guess it explains how things are now, bad. What do I mean by things have been bad? Hmm. Have not been feeling well lately. Loss of appetite, fatigue and nauseous sometimes. Headaches and migraines have been coming along too. Feeling really lonely and bored very often. Especially lonely. Quarreled with some people. Really isn't my week I guess. This week is just really bad. I really, really hope things get better. Currently on ma bed, lying on my pillow. Eating some gummy sweets and blogging. Do return for more posts! Will be starting to blog a bit more. Life goes on.

hey people!
it has been quite awhile since i last blogged.
I wont be blogging much these few days.
Have been pretty busy. as usual.
Homeworks, sometimes im out and such.
So, this is to let y'all know in advance that i wont blog so much.

hehe anyway, it's a Sunday morning..
The usual boring feeling you get.
At least im able to rest though.
Sunday IS the only day that im able to truly rest and do my things.

School has been pretty normal too.
Trying to catch up with lessons and such.
hmm, nothing much i guess.
It's always the same old usual things. hehe
im lazy to blog anyway :)

hey peeps!
its a hot and warm thursday afternoon.
Yea, time really flies once again.
Its the 19 of January. Coming to the end of the month already.
fast fast! hehe.
Anyway didnt really felt good in school today.
Woke up realizing that my throat hurts like hell.
Even swallowing my saliva can be such a difficult thing to do.
And i felt so feverish...
The my first 4 periods was food and nutrition..the teacher nagged non stop -.-
Then ending of the day, had 4 periods of nonstop maths.
Thats 2 hours of maths..crazy i know. My brain died on the second period.
She threw a thick worksheet at uys and told us to complete within the 4 periods.
i almost threw my table at her..naa im just kidding.
hahaha!
anyways, CNY is round the corner.
Wont be much of a Chinese new Year for me...just the normals i guess.
Visiting and reunion dinner..thats all.
Good also, i dont wanna like go out the whole day -.- tiring -.- haha!
okay guess thats all, take care people!

hey everybodehh!
It's a Tuesday today.
And its currently 8.30pm now.
The night has come, another day has passed.
that was fast...you will always hear me using that phrase because its too true.
hehe, today's school was....lethargic? Because i slept around 12am last night and the weather this morning was really really nice.
Cold, breezy and cooling. Who doesn't like that man??
But overall, it was okay.
After school had remedial lessons.
Was pretty productive.
Had science remedials today.
had a chemistry test and normal physics lessons.
Surprisingly i knew how to do 70% of the chemistry test!
WOW! really a surprise. haha!

After that went to Jurong Point with a few friends.
Had dinner there and went to look for some books which i could not find.
We also met many familiar faces there.
I went home after that.
and here i am...using my lappy with undone and untouched homework.
haha, not much homework today actually.
Only a few questions from Food and Nutrition's textbook.
That's about it. Feels good to have lesser homework definitely.

Tomorrow will be another long day.
School, remedial and band...all the way man. hehe!
okay, guess that's about it.
peace out!

Well, there goes the first week of 2012.
It's another typical boring sunday today...
really boring -.- lazy and lethargic too.
Wanna find things to do but just seem so lazy and tired.

hmmm, had band practice yesterday.
was pretty fun though many things happened.
Was really tiring too.
After band practice, went to a friend's condo for a BBQ.
My batch of bandsmen's BBQ. yeap, had much fun there too.
was really tired and worn out by then.
so actually i just sat around and ate. didnt really do much.

Am having the pre-monday blues.
Means that Monday is tomorrow, but im having the effects of tomorrow, today. haha okay confusing.
To make it simpler, am just feeling very moodless and what we call : sian.
Tomorrow's a brand new day, brand new week. Hopefully it'll be a much better week than this week.
Just hope things get better as time goes by.

I just want something to happen in my life.
That something doesnt have to be very exciting.
Because everyday is the same. It's too dull.
Cant take it. -.-
oh well, have to make things happen myself i guess.
unless miracles do happen.
hehe okay enough nonsense.
back to reality, take care peeps.
Have an enjoyable Sunday and a great week ahead!

aaaaaaaand there goes the first day of school!
That was fast!
lets elaborate more, shall we? (:

Well, met up with a friend and went to school with him.
feels pretty good yet miserable to be back in school once again.
haha.
I searched for my class along the parade square.
Found and sat in my rows.
Everyone started to look at me -.- that was the most sickening part.
Look people, i know i dont belong there.
you think i wanna be there in the first place?!
Anyway, had a damn long talk in the hall.
As usual...pfft -.- my butt was cramping up and my legs were numb.
for the first time, it felt so good to stand up. haha!

Then we returned back to class.
Started off with some administrative work and then proceeded on to "ice breaking" games.
We started introducing ourselves one by one and so on...
and surprisingly, there goes the bell! school had ended!
haha, then went go have lunch with some friends and headed to popular to get a few essential stationaries.
headed back back, reached home, put my bag down, sat on the sofa and i slept.
Till about 6.30. wow. shows how tired i am.
well, i didnt sleep well last night either.
Tossed and turned for 4 hours..sigh.
oh well, my body isnt used to the sudden change i guess.
Have to adapt to this new lifestyle slowly.

Guess thats all!
Tomorrow's the second day of school.
toodles!