Misery

Hello~ finally found some free time to blog a bit. Well, I just woke up like half an hour ago. It's now 12:10pm on a Thursday afternoon. Waiting for time to pass and I'll head off to work soon. Oh yes, I'm working at St.Regis hotel located at orchard. Heh. It's not that bad, but it's extremely tiring. My shift today will be from 5pm to 3am. Hmmm, actually waiting for someone to wake up too. Sigh, so bored and lonely. Always. I'm home alone now... Hmmmmm, have you ever had this hopeless sad feeling? Whereby you work so hard and put in so much effort just to bring someone out but in the end, you realize it's not possible because there's other things in between that's obstructing you from going out tgt with that person. What do you do? I have no idea too. Plans never seem to work out, Fights and quarrels almost everyday. Hard to see one another. This really sucks man. For example, you're so excited and looking forward to go to....let's say USS with that person. Very much looking forward and keen. But...it's not possible because of the things that block the way. Hais, this is really beyond what I can do. I have already done my best. Took so much initiative in everything that it makes me look and feel desperate. I've already done the best I could. The rest is all beyond my power and reach. Feeling like this everyday, it's just horrible I tell you. The thought just keeps lingering in your mind. Plus nothing really good has been happening lately. It's either normal...or bad. I really hope things get better soon. Cause I can't take it much longer.